Thursday, October 21, 2010

God, Are You There?

Once upon a time, my brother and I were sound asleep in our favorite place to be: our parents' bedroom. I remember it like it was yesterday. It was summer time, pitch dark outside, and late at night when the phone rang. Laying there on the sofa, I jerked awake. As I opened my eyes, there above me, hovering over me and my brother, was a bright glowing figure. In my ear, it whispered, "Everything is going to be okay." Not knowing what the phone call was about, I felt a sense of peace. Turning away, I saw my daddy; his face was red and covered in tears.

His oldest sister who he held dearest to his heart was in ICU. The doctors knew she wouldn't make it. Her time here on earth was almost up. My daddy was beside himself. In any other circumstance, I would have panicked. I would have cried my eyes out immediately after seeing my daddy cry. However, God had given me a sense of peace. God who cares about each and every one of us so much, sent his angel to whisper words of comfort in my ear. My brother and I were in elementary school at the time. We couldn't have been more than 5 and 7 years of age. As the clock ticked, time stood still. I would never forget that night: the night the angel appeared.

Within a few days we were headed for Florida to celebrate my Aunt Kimmy's arrival through Heaven's Pearly Gates. So many people see funerals as depressing, a time to mourn, a time to wear black, and cry your eyes out. I'm not going to say that it's not right to think this way. However, when Jesus comes to take us home, isn't it suppose to be a time of joy and celebration? (It should be if that's where you and your loved ones are headed).

I have something unusual about myself that I'll go ahead and share with those who may find it interesting. God has truly blessed me. Some people may label it as a disability, but I would have to disagree. When I am presented with unexpected, tragic news, I laugh. In my research, I have found no name for this. Now the reason this occurs: the brain miss communicates signals. Whether or not I cry or laugh, the function is mostly involuntary. So while I stand off to the side at funerals, I am only trying to keep from looking like a jerk. Ultimately, the brain is in charge of the body's functions and emotions. The way I see it: God has kept me from a blotchy face and tear stained dress. When Jesus takes me home, I don't want people to cry! I want them to laugh, smile, and rejoice! Heaven stands free of sadness, worry, anger, and depression. Why would I want others to mourn when I'm shouting with excitement in the arms of my Heavenly Father?

After my Aunt Kimmy's funeral, my mom received a call from her sister and brother-in-law that my Papa was in ICU. Within hours, my mom was headed up to South Carolina. Praise the Lord it wasn't time for my Papa to pass; I do not think my mom could have handled it. She spent hours at a time up at the hospital, trading out every now and then with our other family members. God healed my Papa. God held my family so close to Him, we knew as children of God He would never let us go. Everything is in God's hands. If I didn't have Jesus I would have cried, worried, and panicked; but God sent me an angel. That peace that passes all understanding filled the air. After about a week, my family was back together, re-entering our comfort zone. Weeks passed, and I still thought about the angel; that night played over and over in my mind.

On lonely nights in my dorm room, I lay and wonder, "God are you there?" I can hear the noise of the cars out my window, the sound of skateboards skimming the pavement, and ambulance sirens ringing throughout the city; and then I see a flash of memories fly through my head. The Alpha and Omega, Beginning and the End, the everlasting God who sent His son to die on the cross and reigns forever reminds me.... "I am always HERE!" He never leaves and He never sleeps. Although I have seen an angel, I do want to remind you: You don't have to see to believe; believing is seeing. I believe in angels and that they are everywhere. They look out for us and keep us safe. They are God's warriors in the spiritual battle as we are His on Earth. So in case you ever wonder: Where are you God? Know that although you cannot see Him and sometimes cannot feel His presence... He is there. Your Faith will pull you through.

Scripture for the week (Your rock of foundation):

"For the mountains may depart and the hills be removed, but my steadfast love shall not depart from you, and my covenant of peace shall not be removed," says the Lord, who has compassion on you. -Isaiah 54:10

May the God of hope fill you with all the joy and peace as you trust in Him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit. -Romans 15:13

Saturday, October 2, 2010

Good Things Come To Those Who Wait...

Once upon a time, I was five years old, carrying around baby-dolls and wanting nothing more than to be a mommy when I grew up. My goal was to be married with kids by the time I'm 25. Of course remember... those are the Elementary years: girls have cooties, recess involved long games of "Kissy Face," (where the boys ran as fast as they could away from all the girls who tried to catch and kiss them), and if no one wanted to participate in the game... the girls would spend that time playing "House." I was never concerned with who I was going to marry... I figured I had plenty to choose from; the boys were so shy, you couldn't tell if one liked you or not... so you decided for them.

Example: I think Jeremy is cute! I'm going to catch him at recess but not give him a kiss. He will like me for not kissing him. I will give my friend a note to give to him that says I like him... and he will give me his candy (we got candy if we were good for our teacher at the end of the day)... and I will marry him when we grow up.

Do you ever wish it was that simple? Just go out and play a game of "Kissy Face" to pick your future husband... and he will magically be your knight in shining armor. What a dream huh? If there's anything I've learned... my life and the events that occur throughout my life are all in God's timing... NOT MY OWN! In middle school, I assumed I'd have my first real boyfriend... that sure didn't happen. I also assumed I'd have a date for my first dance in 8th grade... that didn't happen either... but I did get to go with my very BEST FRIEND!! And I danced with a guy I had no idea would be my date for Senior prom. See, there again.. I assumed I'd have the greatest boyfriend in the history of boyfriends in high school who would take me to my Senior Prom. But God had a different plan... and I'm much happier that I followed His path for me instead of my own. I couldn't have asked for a better date; he was one of my special needs kids! I've yet to meet any guy that could compare!

Now I am in college. I am a single, independent, and very passionate young girl who has spent most of my life learning how in love God is with me! Can you believe it? God who created us, created this earth, sent His son to die for our sin... is IN LOVE with me! And you know that feeling you get when you find out a guy really doesn't love you... that pain that seems as though it has ripped your heart into a million pieces? Well imagine all of those people that have rejected God... who have rejected His son. Imagine the heart ache He feels when that person dies... when there is no more hope. I have spent so much time looking for that "perfect guy," and yet all I have found is disappointment. I long for someone to care about me, care for me, and love me for who I am. And yet, I have something way better than what I find myself looking for! I have God! He loves me, He listens to me, He doesn't leave me questioning whether or not He wants a relationship, and He is there to support me ALL the TIME! So if anyone should ask me, "Sara, are you in love? Have you found someone? Are you in a relationship," I can answer, "Yes! I am in love with God! I am in a relationship with Him! I am His bride!"

I do know that God has my future husband out there somewhere. And I know that He is just as in love with God as I am. I know that God has promised me an eternity with Him. And I know His plan for my life is much better than that of my own. So for any young men that read this... where is your heart? Are you focused on God... or your own desires? Do you want a wife someday who is in love with God?
And young ladies... is God your knight in shining armor? Do you see yourself in that beautiful white wedding gown God has made just for you? Have you said, "I do?"

is my saving grace! He is my warrior! He has fought the battle for me and won! He is my groom! And I will love Him ALWAYS! And I will continue thanking and praising him for the man He has promised me in years to come.

The Bible says:

However, as it is written:"No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love him but God has revealed it to us by his Spirit. The Spirit searches all things, even the deep things of God. For who among men knows the thoughts of a man except the man's spirit within him? In the same way no one knows the thoughts of God except the Spirit of God. We have not received the spirit of the world but the Spirit who is from God, that we may understand what God has freely given us."
1 Corinthians 2:9-12

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.” Jeremiah 29:11-13