Sunday, April 28, 2013
Once upon a time friends, I was driving home. As I turned onto the road leading to my street, I felt in my heart that everything was going to be okay. I've been in my car a lot these past few days... it's the only place I seem to have the best conversations with God. These past few trips I've made, I felt the urge to spend time thanking God. How often I find myself asking Him to do things for me... and not thanking Him for all He has done. In approximately six days I will be leaving the beautiful town of Carrollton. I have made so many memories here and friendships that I dread leaving. This place has become more home to me than where I grew up. The good Lord has used these past two years to change me in ways I never thought I would.
I had given up on family besides my parents and my brother... and it was here in Carrollton that God gave me friends I hold so dear to my heart I may as well call them family. I went from feeling alone... to feeling loved by many. I've never felt so welcomed and accepted in my life. God blessed me with an amazing church and small group. I went from dragging my feet just getting up in the morning to make myself go to church as a kid... to looking forward to Sundays thankful I had such an encouraging body of brothers and sisters in Christ coming together to praise the Lord! I've had many friendships last for a short season of my life within these past two years here; but with each that has come and gone, those friendships helped mold me into the person God is creating me to be. Never in a million years would I have thought I would attend school here in Carrollton... but there is not a day that goes by that I regret the decision I made.
This is one chapter friends that will be difficult to close. Earlier today, I was conversing with my Life group leader and his wife. He told me what a blessing I'd been to the group and how much I had meant to them. His wife said she felt I wouldn't lose them... but they sure feel that they are losing me... She asked if it was too late to change my mind and stay... as I stood there feeling that lovely frog in my throat... I told her, "I can't when I know the Lord is telling me to go... when He is kicking my butt out the door." I know without a doubt the Lord is leading me onto the next chapter in my life...
I don't know why I doubt His faithfulness in coming through for me and continuing to make my life even better than now... which is hard to imagine. Gram told me in church today what her daddy use to remind her, "If the good Lord takes care of all the birds in the sky, what makes you think He won't take care of you?" She's right friends. I have proof. All I have to do is take a step back and look at how far I've come. This time last year I could have promised you I would stay in the south... but when you seek God's plans for your life... you never know where you will end up!
I know my posts have been somewhat similar over the years... the same ideas... same thoughts... but I'm still a kid... and we repeat ourselves a lot... such as the over-usage of the words "like" and "um" ....then again, mothers repeat themselves a lot... so I guess the act of repeating is expected...
Thanks for reading...
Be blessed through Scripture:
"We walk by faith, not by sight."
2 Corinthians 5:7
"Trust in Him at all times, you people; pour out your heart before Him, God is a refuge for us."
"The world is passing away, and the lust of it; but he who does the will of god abides forever."
1 John 2:17
"This is the day that the Lord has made; we will rejoice and be glad in it."
Tuesday, April 16, 2013
Once upon a time, a pig flew into my window. At that same moment, a dinosaur walked through my house! On my front porch steps stood an army of giant man eating ants! There was a moose in my kitchen! There was a flamingo in my bathtub! In my closet, stood a 6ft green eyed monster! My fish, Carl, turned into a great white shark and my roommates turned into aliens! Great start to a story, right? Well, it gets better! My mother turned into a sloth, my brother a penguin, and my dad a gorilla! Now what does that make me you ask....
I'm a 6 year old child stuck in a 21 year old body! I eat dinosaur chicken nuggets with bbq sauce, celery sticks with peanut butter, and jello cups! If I could have an endless supply of juice boxes, I would be the happiest college kid ever! I like to color with markers but they make a mess.... so I stick with crayons. I love to swing... it's probably one of my favorite things to do. You can pretend you are on a plane flying far away from this crazy messed up world! I gave up trying to fit in when I realized we were born to stand out. I could quote Charles Schulz and Dr. Seuss all day long. There are some days when nothing seems to go right besides an episode of The Berenstain Bears where morals exist and there is always a silver lining.
What happened to that imagination we had as children? I remember looking up at the sky and thinking heaven was made up of a bunch of puffy clouds where angels played without ceasing. I had an imaginary friend who liked to do everything I did... and I wasn't thought strange because all my friends had imaginary friends too!
Everything is so boring now. I'm in that point of my life where I'm not satisfied where I am but I don't know where I would be happy. I'm in this period of waiting. In one of my recent posts, I wrote how I was standing at a crossroad and had to choose which way to go. Well, what happens when you choose a path and it isn't going how you planned causing you to doubt your leap of faith? I know I'm headed in the direction the Lord wants me to go in because I have sought Him and prayed His desires become mine. However, like He's reminded me over the years.... He never said following Him would be easy. My chapter will soon close here in the south and I will begin a new one. I am excited to see where the next chapter takes me. Like in any book, you will always have your favorite chapters you could read over and over again. My childhood happened to be one of them!
In all this rambling I leave you with this:
1) Hold on to your favorite chapters and remember them when life is in a standstill.
2) Your imagination keeps you young!
P.S. For those of you who have seen me "talking to my imaginary friend" .... I'm not crazy ;) I gave up my imaginary friend a long time ago and gained a real one who likes to do everything I do... my Savior! ...you just can't see Him!
"Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen." Hebrews 11:1
Jesus said, "If you can believe, all things are possible to him who believes." Mark 9:23
For in it the righteousness of God is revealed from faith to faith; as it is written, "The just shall live by faith." Romans 1:17
For with God nothing will be impossible. Luke 1:37