Monday, January 28, 2013

Do Not Fear!

Once upon a time, I was 17 years old sitting in a doctors office wishing I was anywhere but there. It was spring of my junior year and my life was going great up until then. One minute I was ok and the next I was fearing for my life. It was in that moment I had to let go. I had to put all my faith, hope, and trust in the Lord. Long story short, I ended up just fine (obviously, or I wouldn't be writing this blog right now)!  Thankfully my doctor's visit went well.... no cancer. Looking back remembering the heart ache and hopelessness I felt those few weeks, I am reminded of how blessed I am to be where I am today.

I have a dear friend who has battled POTS amongst other illnesses for the past 2 years. Her sophomore year of high school, she sat in class feeling perfectly fine one minute and then miserable the next. Little did she know the hard road she had ahead. Her life is a living testimony and she happens to be the most inspirational young girl I believe I have ever met. Through her sickness she has sought the Lord and continued to work as Christ's hands and feet! I couldn't imagine feeling as weak as she has and still making myself get up and bring joy being a light to others. Though she faces many obstacles, she overcomes them daily. I truly believe the Lord has great plans for her! My life alone wouldn't be the same without having met her beautiful family.

Be thankful for those times you feel out of control. Those are the times I feel my relationship with my heavenly Father grow tremendously! It is then when the Lord comes along, picks us up, and reminds us our reason for living. In this life, all we know is a beginning and an end. Praise the Lord for the eternity we have to look forward to spending with Him.

Sitting there in that doctor's office, I felt absolutely helpless and alone. Yet the Lord was right there beside me just as He is with my sweet friend.... just as He is with you. In those moments when you are scared.. He is there. Be thankful for every blessing the Lord has given you. Cherish each day. Live like tomorrow is your last.


"Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me."
Psalm 23:4

"Fear not for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, and help you; I will uphold you with My righteous right hand."
Isaiah 41:10

"You will keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on You, because He trusts in You."
Isaiah 26:3

"Being confident of this very thing, that He who has begun a great work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ." 
Philippians 1:6

Saturday, January 12, 2013

Desires of the Heart

Once upon a time, all was quiet. I had gone about my usual morning routine preparing for the day when I felt the Lord calling me. It had been weeks since I had really spent quiet time with Him. I always say my prayers at night and usually fall asleep halfway through, but quiet time with the Lord is a lot different from my usual nightly prayers. It is during my quiet time He teaches me through His word. I wish I could say I read my Bible religiously. However, I don't find much enjoyment reading. Though every time I open my Bible, I am presented with vereses relative to my circumstances at that time. Friends, it is one of those verses the Lord impressed into my heart throughout this week. It is one of those verses that tugged at my heart so much it brought me to tears.

"Delight yourself in the Lord; and He will give you the desires of your heart."                      
-Psalm 37:4 
He does not say to take delight in this world. So often I find myself looking for earthly things to satisfy me. Yet the things in this world are only temporary. This past week, it seemed as though nothing went right... by my standards. My car stopped working. My "dream" college job fell through. Another job I applied for was already filled. I spent the week fighting off whatever sickness went through my house. I wasn't able to sleep. Everything went wrong! I felt the Lord reminding me to count my blessings and trust in Him, but I didn't want to. How could He have allowed any of this mess? Why would He not want me to have this job? Questions ran through my head all week long. Thursday night, I began venting to my best friend. It was then she said, "Everything will be okay." That was our motto we lived by all summer. Every time we got ourselves in a bind, stressed out, or worried we repeated this phrase to each other over and over again. What was it about this simple phrase that made stress and worries of this world melt away?

Friday morning, I got up preparing for the day. It was rainy outside and all I could think about was the stillness of the morning. The sun hid behind the clouds and the only sound was raindrops splashing against the window. I was to spend the day with a friend, but she was running behind. It was a calm morning, and it was then I opened my Bible/devotion to Psalm 37:4.  I have prayed for as long as I can remember that the Lord's desires for my life become that of my own. Sitting on my bed reading Psalm 34 feeling so unworthy and guilty for my frustration with Him this past week, His words spoke forgiveness. "The Lord redeems his servants; no one will be condemned who takes refuge in Him." Psalm 34:22

It is my prayer for this year to delight in the Lord, for He alone knows the desires of my heart. Though I may not see His plans clearly, I know they are better than those of my own. In a recent conversation I found myself expressing the importance of putting our focus on the Lord. When seeking Him first before anything else this world has to offer, it is then He allows everything to fall into place.

The Word:

"You are my rock and my fortress; Therefore, for your name's sake, lead me and guide me." 
Psalm 31:3 

Thus says the Lord, your Redeemer, the Holy One of Israel: "I am the Lord your God, who teaches you to profit, who leads you by the way you should go." 
Isaiah 48:17

"The Lord will guide you continually, and satisfy your soul in drought, and strengthen your bones; you shall be like a watered garden, and like a spring of water, whose waters do not fail." 
Isaiah 58:11

"If you abide in Me, and My words abide in you, you will ask what you desire, and it shall be done for you."
John 15:7