My Life In a Song (Never Grow Up) by Taylor Swift
Once upon a time, I feared I was going to lose everyone closest to me. I thought God might just snatch me up and I'd leave all my family behind. It took forever to figure out why I was so fearful of death. Turns out, it wasn't death... it was leaving those I hold closest in my heart behind. (Morbid... who thinks of this crap.... right)?? So, I grew really attached to my mom.
There were many other reasons why I clung to her... Every play date to McDonalds in Pre-K, every slumber party in elementary school, every tear I shed during those wretched middle school years, every Wednesday for coffee dates after school, and those random days we'd drive up to my high school and decide to go shopping and out for lunch instead, she was there. Everyone tends to look at a mother-daughter relationship and think terribly of them if they admit to being best friends. Well, a best friend is someone who stands up for you, believes and supports you, loves you deeply for the person God has created you to be, and sticks it out in both the good and bad times. Yes, she is my mom first and foremost, but she is also my very best friend. I wouldn't be who I am today if it weren't for her. I wouldn't have the relationship I have with my heavenly Father if it weren't for her teaching me and pointing me back to Him in every aspect of my life. I praise God for her and thank God for my family every day. I am no longer afraid of the day when Christ calls me home; He's the reason for the life we live. All praise and thanks belongs to Him alone.
I used to wonder what God's hugs felt like every time I'd lie awake in bed at night. Sometimes I'd get up and go crawl in bed with my parents when I went through months of anxiety attacks. My mom would hug me so tight it felt like she'd never let go... and then one night it hit me and I whispered in my mom's ear, "God is hugging me through you."
No matter how difficult it is to grow up, God is always HERE.... and my night light is always on.
Scripture Says:
"Arise, shine, for your light has come, and the glory of the LORD rises upon you." -Isaiah 60:1
"Give thanks to the LORD, call on His name; make known among the nations what He has done." -1 Chronicles 16:8
Awesome. Keep writing, Sara!
ReplyDeleteLove this. My relationship with my mom wasn't always the best, but halfway through high school it hit me, that which you were blessed to have figured out a while ago- that a mom can be a best friend, and that they're darn good best friends, too. Because they are really good at loving unconditionally. Supporting you no matter what. And on top of all that, they know you pretty well, too. After all, she was the first person I ever spent time with in this world...
ReplyDeleteMerry Christmas Sara- to you and your beautiful family!
So sweet! I understand. I had a mom who was my best friend and daughters who are as well. I wish every girl could have this treasure.
ReplyDeleteLove ya...Kim
Sara, your mom has been Jesus clothed with human flesh for me many times! I thank God that He lets us be instruments of His love for us in spite of our imperfections and weaknesses. You are a light shining in the darkness...keep on going!!! Never doubt that you are well equipped!
ReplyDeleteThough I read this quite a while back....I never commented! And this was sooooo very very sweet:) I played the song for your Daddy. God has so Blessed us with an Awesome Relationship. I didn't learn this from my own Mom. Though I love/loved her so very much.......saddens me that she really didn't get to know me. I Praise God that He has taught me how to be both Mom and friend to you. And it came so naturally. I am so Blessed that you also desired a close relationship with me. I love you!!! And I know you are His First and foremost and you know it also!!! And I give Him All The Praise for who and what you are becoming!!!
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